Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Piece of Me


There are times that we don’t need any THING to make us feel okay. All need and all we want to have is a FRIEND who will be with us along the way and who will never give up on us, who will accept us despite all our imperfections, who encourage us, who will tell us if we are running the right track or the wrong one, and who will give us the chance to love and be loved unfailingly. Sad to admit, there are also times our very own friends are not available at all times that we need them. There are circumstances that we are left alone.

I remember my first month as freshman in college. I live in a dormitory wherein I know no one. I enrolled in a university wherein I also know no one. I am in a city wherein I know no one except my aunt and her family (the problem is I have no idea how to get in there place, they still have to fetch me because it’s far from my dormitory). I have no friends. I have no idea where to eat. I have no idea where the mall is. I have no idea what will happen to me but I just opened my heart to all the great possibilities that I could experience.



I went to the dormitory 2 or 3 days before the exact date of first day of school so I could adjust my daily routines. During the first week, I shed no tear because my friends in manila constantly texts me (thanks to them!), I also became friends with my roommate and I finally met my awesome block mates. But after that week, each night I couldn’t sleep unless tears ran down from my eyes. There were also mornings that as I walk to my class, I literally cry. Funny and weird but I just miss my home and miss everyone else.
So there, I survived one academic year and all not just because of programming myself that I have to be strong and I have to grow but also with the help of the new people around me and old people who prayed for me and with the help of our Best Ever Friend, God.

I socialized with my blockmates, discovered who were dormers too and befriended with 11 awesome people in the class. I joined a Christian Organization in our university. I attended different Christian Churches until I found a Church away from my real Church (haha, thanks to my chuababes!). And. And. And each time I arrived at my dormitory after school, I would talk to God about my day. I played music, wrote Him a letter, read His love letter, believed in His promises and finish the tasks I have to do.


Indeed, I am blessed. My first year of college is not as perfect as I imagined it would be but I don’t know, it’s just amazing. I learned so many things that this blog couldn’t contain but it’s my pleasure to share this one of the greatest lessons that I learned and at the same time I experienced. I have been hearing, sharing and believing that the son of God, Jesus Christ, is our greatest friend but not until after I reminisced how JC helped me go through it all that I really realized … He became my greatest friend. It’s hard to explain how but I am praying that you would experience it too. He loves you and He will never leave you. Unlike any other, He’s always available and He keeps His promises.


This is a piece of my blessed life and this is one of my life’s great testimonies. 

Thanks to You! :)


Looking back at the years that passed, I can say that my sister had a great part of molding me into who I am today. She taught me how to deal with things, from easiest to hardest. She encouraged me to keep standing when everything seemed to fall down. She would push me to conquer my fears. She helped me realize the value of money, relationships and most especially my service to God.

She often quotes Jeremiah 29:11, when we pray or when I feel hopeless …

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

She always reminds me that God knows what He is doing in my life and instead of questioning Him, I should be thanking Him.

I was her little baby but as clock ticks so fast I became her BIG baby. I started to walk slowly on my own, to discover new things and to learn from my experiences. I realized that as I grow-up, life gets more complicated and tougher. That the love I thought was true wasn’t really that, it was just some kind of test to my commitment to our Father. I also thought that by wearing heels, being skinny and having fair skin is being beautiful but it’s not… it’s by being be-YOU-tiful. I also realized that I don’t have to stress myself out to excel at all things, I just have to enjoy and be the best that I can be.

I really thank God for my sister that though I grew up without our mother’s caress, at least I have her to guide me and to love me. Thank you ate because if not through you I wouldn’t understand what great promise lies behind the simple words of Jeremiah 29:11, that when I am into difficult times I should not question God about His promise about prosperity, safety, hope and future. Because He knows, He knows very well His plans for me and not my plans for myself. I just have to be still and know that He is my great God. I just have to keep holding and believing onto His promises in my life. I just have to keep on working to be who He wants me to be because it’s greater than stressing out myself to be I wanna be.

To all the Ate’s out there, I salute all of you. We all appreciate your hard works and sacrifices for us. We may fight with you or yell at you, but really, YOU ARE ONE OF THE GREATEST GIFTS WE EVER RECEIVED FROM GOD. YOU MAY THINK YOU ARE NOT PERFECT, BUT WHO CARES? NO ONE’S REALLY PERFECT… HOWEVER, FOR US, YOUR YOUNGER SIBLINGS, YOU ARE THE BEST AND YOU ARE OUR ROLE MODEL!

WE LOVE YOU, WE SWEAR WE DO.

SORRY IF WE FAIL YOU AT MANY TIMES BUT THANK YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE STILL THERE NO MATTER WHAT.

WE MAY NOT GIVE BACK EVERYTHING THAT YOU HAVE GIVEN US BUT THE LORD WILL SURELY BLESS YOU HUNDRED TIMES.

REALLY, THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING. LOVE YOU ATE!